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Tuesday, July 11, 2006
having bad pms.
tear gland infection.
no vball to play.
projects
tests
exams
Highly irritated.
please stay away from me.
just want to be alone.. :(
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Monday, July 03, 2006
had the most memorable beach volleyball game to date last saturday..
what a way to kickstart the month of july.. 01072006
:)
satisfaction.
happiness.
going through thick and thin together.
dedicated to my ever dearest soulmate seety..
we started out the day feeling all nervous and hyped up..
went to harbourfront early in the morning just to find the best toilet to shit together.
bonding eh?
grab mac b'fast
and made our way down to sunset bay.
warmed up and stretched for our first game..
vs Iris & Katrin, the radio tuning team.
bad wind condition, super bad.
guess we weren't prepared for the wind..
our ball control was horrendous!! heh.
we held on from the start, but at the last 5 points, we start trailing behind..
lost the game with a score of 21-18 and 21-17..
no prob baby.. learning point, learn how to play with the wind. heh.
rest a while, watched the guys games...
then prepared for the next game against Xiufeng and Jingjing le..
took advantage of their lack of warm up..
and the fact that they have not gotten used to the wind..
we grit our teeth and play the game
our pace, our momentum, our style..
almost an impeccable game..
got down the game with a score of 21-6, 21-12..
got into the finals.. yeah!
we're relieved that eventually we manage to make it to the finals.
from not being expected to get into the top 4 of AAA division,
we made it to the finals..
we didn't expect this much too..
all we wanted was to get into AAA division, getting 6th doesn't matter..
we had real good grouping..
and we just played game by game... giving our very best in each game..
unknowingly, we fought and got into Top 4 le..
we were real happy enough.. simple girls.. :)
we wanted to win the ang mohs badly first time round because of their ya-ya attitude on court,
plus the bloody radio tuning.. heh..
zhen de shi kan bu xia qu le..
finals time..
we had the support of fellow beach volleyballers..
they're proud of us for making it so far..
we warmed up, stretched..
listened to advices from everybody...
it was overwhelming..
first set started and we played our game...
doing whatever we want..
gave all we have..
and got down the set with a score of 21-18..
happy with the set eh...
everybody told us, great job, that's the way to do it..
:) happiness..
second set started..
both teams were biting the scores real hard and tight..
no one is allowing anyone to pull the score apart..
we went for anyball we can..
having the mentally that we mustn't allow the ball to touch the sand..
in the midst of the game...
after all the running..
starting not to have a response from all the communication and talking..
guess you're really tired le..
i understand too..
poor girl ya..
we were biting real hard.. just a teeny weeny bit more, we would have gotten it down..
last half of the match, we were playing a game based just on affinity and mo qi between us..
glad our frequency was real good.. :)
sorry about my service girl.. know it was really horrendous during the second set..
we put up a good fight... but lost the set 20-22..
but it was a good game..
we gave them a run for their money.. heh..
hugs...
rest a little..
and then the 3rd set..
we shared a little hug...
then went for war..
points started 1-1..
then the real game started..
both teams changed their tactics..
both teams made use of the advantage side of the court to get as many points as they can.
one time we were leading..
then the next they were leading..
we were trailing 10-13...
5 more points for us..
2 more points for them..
odds were against us..
we were on the advantage side of the court..
we took down the next two points.. 12-13
court switch..
they are now on the advantage side of the court..
body's tensing up.. atmosphere tensing up too..
everybody's rooting for every point..
everybody's tired...
next point went to them. 14-12..
crucial time.. match point..
we then played rally..
next point was ours.. 14-13..
one more point.. just one more point to increase our chances..
we're tired.. real tired.. but was trying to focus at one thing at a time..
rally up and down...
we dive, ran, just to make the ball go over..
we lost the last point..
the match point
and the game ended.. 15-13.
a 2-1 game..
we lost, but it wasn't a bitter lost..
we fought hard..
it was the best game we had.
we played for the happiness we derive,
played for us,
played for the passion for the game
nothing else mattered..
we didn't care if i have a upper level management to answer to
we didn't aim for any prize money, just the minimum will do..
we just played for ourselves...
:)
great game girl..
this whole competition has been filled with happiness because of you..
winning or losing doesn't matter anymore..
i just want to play with your company..
hugs...
woke up the next morning with overwhelming emotions
mixed emotions..
don't know what i'm feeling..
but images of the whole competition and you just kept flooding my mind..
and a smile lit my face..
now i know i really want ya for life as my soulmate..
hugs..
tan di di and seet liang liang. :)
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Sunday, July 02, 2006
hey peeps..
i'm finally back eh with a new post??
was super busy this period of time with school and competition, and trying to catch as much sleep as i can too...
updates..
school's driving me really really nuts with all the reports and projects.
youth cup's finally over.. great job PHS Alumni! heh. :)
VAS Open beach volleyball is finally finally finally over too.. played the finals. great man.
Started on my bike license already. but had a minor accident during my FIRST LESSON. heh. good or bad?? better fall in the school than outside on the road right? but was silly enough to change gear at a bend. stupid to the max. grins..
anyway, to rong mei mei...
no after the break up and stuffs, we're going to be real good friends still..
know you need attention every now and then,
and i'm sorry for not giving it to you this period of time..
it's not that you're out of my mind..
but was just too caught up with work..
i'm sorry eh...
many things seems to be happening in your life..
glad everything is turning out better and better for you..
hopefully we can get out one day for some meal or what..
meanwhile, take real good care alright? hugs..
seety baby...
getting second for the comp is good alright? though it's a little pity that we didn't hold the second set down..
take it as a learning point for us.. improve our stamina and our experience.. hugs..
having loads of mixed emotions inside me right now..
think it's the same for you too..
emotions for you, for the game, for the sport, for the both of us..
i believe we're really meant to be in this life together..
let's work hard and train hard together eh?
we're not playing for the national squad,
we're not playing for school,
we're not playing for anybody..
we're just playing for us, for the happiness we derive.
gambatte eh??
we'll come back stronger. :) hugs
and boy,
know you care about me..
but i don't feel the affinity with her as a couple anymore,
really just want to keep her as a friend..
loads of things are in conflict when we're a couple,
disagreements and stuffs..
and i don't want her to change anything just to suits to my needs,
the feeling is just not right.. ya get it??
and keeping her as a close friend.. is sufficient le..
hope you understand..
recently like not so close with u le..
kinda lost and feel a little down..
the occasional chats brighten up my day though..
been really busy with school too.
sorry to neglect ya too..
hope we'll be bf/gf eh.. hee..
take care..
love ya..
loads of things happen this period of time, loads for TP vb girls..
poor big pen.. got to take all the shit..
rough time of the year..
just hope everything will turn out better soon..
shall chiong my license.. so i can ride everywhere i go!! yeah!!!
dream: honda SP. hur hur..
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Sunday, May 14, 2006
been a long time since i last post.
yawns.
am so sleepy..
saw my spastic pic in newpaper today.
how the hell did it get there?
don't even know for what purpose too!
growls.
got a damn shock.
kinda affected by your actions these few days...
there isn't a problem..
just affected..
i shall go sleep and feel better tml..
workload's piling up..
i guess i better buck up and let other things occupy my mind instead..
work work work..
shall try passing my semester with better grades.
trainings kinda sucky for me too..
everything's going downhill right now..
no defense, no firstball, no blocking, no attack..
feel so useless now..
suddenly every step of my vball path is a blur to me..
shall just keep exercising and hope everything will turn for the better.
not in the mood now..
why did i made you upset just because i didn't call because i want ya to have as much sleep as possible since you've been having sleepless nights since ages ago..
i'm never powerful enough to get you to sleep early.
i knocked off late.. real late..
nightmares about me? just show you don't feel secure with me..
sigh.
what should i do...???
shall just sleep anad feel better tml...
tml will be a beautiful day!! grins
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Sunday, May 07, 2006
sigh, nothing has changed girl, really nothing..
why do you keep insisting that something has changed..
you're upset cause you think i no longer care about you,
but seriously i care a damn lot.
but you don't see it.
how do you want me to care for you,
if you don't see i care for you by those occasional messages asking how's your day?
whether is it cold on your side?
have you had your dinner?
did you sleep well?
rest enough before you start studying..
are you falilng sick?
you tell it straight into my face,
and i'll show you your way.
why are you saying that all that we had have to come to this stage?
i don't understand..
what stage have we come to?
i just didn't want to disturb you too much cause i'll be afraid you're studying,
cause you might be catching those little rest you can have.
i didn't even message you so often because i don't want you to keep replying me and not concentrate on your work.
seriously,
i felt super upset when you say those stuffs,
made me feel as though nothing i've done for the past couple of months is working out.
EVERYTHING I DO MAKES YOU UPSET,
WHICH IN TURN YOU CAN'T CONCENTRATE ON YOUR STUDYING,
LATER ON IN THE NIGHT YOU CAN'T GET TO SLEEP,
nothing i do works.
i pretending nothing has happened,
hoping that it'll cheer you up now that i'm fine,
hence, able to concentrate more on your studies, rest better,
and keep yourself well for the battle you're facing..
your emotions are driving me mad.
i feel as though i can do nothing right..
everything i do seems to have a bad side that you spot,
and it'll upset you..
and the cycle begins again..
i wake up every morning facing a super upset you..
don't even know the smile you're giving me is genuine,
or just plainly a facade to cheer me up..
you don't even ask how are my fingers doing..
but i'm not going to harp on that
cause i know you still care about me through those messages you give me..
no more sweet messages??
not that way, just that the messages are sweet in another way now..
if you really don't agree or manage to see things at my level,
maybe i'm not the one for you,
he is..
i'm a realistic person..
exam period everything is out of the way except studies..
if you say i don't care about you..
then why should i bother being upset when he is mentioned in ya post so affectionately..
i know this time hanging up on you and switching off my mobile will make you super upset..
but i can't take it anymore..
i really can't..
you feel like a total stranger to me..
i don't even know what's on your mind and what i should do to help and what should i say..
i'm so afraid to take my next move..
if i didn't call, you'll say things have changed..
i called.. but it didn't solve your problems and doubts...
another failed attempt at assuring you things have not changed?
i really give up..
i'm really really at a loss now...
i really don't know what to do...
i can't seem to give you the happiness i hope to give..
i'm sorry i've to let you have a sleepless night again..
but i really can't take it anymore..
stop thinking too much..
though i know you can't do it..
perhaps only he knows how you work during your exam period..
i don' t know... i really don't..
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Friday, May 05, 2006
HI EVERYBARDDI!
i was back from thailand a zillion years ago.
i admit i am real lazy to blog after that break.
but upon request from people debbie teo li mian
i'll just blog today!!!!
debbie just cheated my feelings.
got to wait for her now la! to go home and take her shorts.
why can't she just wear her printed panties for training.
i promise i won't laugh.
projects are piling up, got no idea what am i studying as well.
yawns...
roni's birthday was ruined by me. sigh.
tp vb team's getting better. YEAH!
everybody's like one big family, i like.
with the exception of somebody.
the outcaste.
bvb is ridiculous.
don't want to see her.
but still need to train in order to get rid of her.
so in the end, still got to see her during training.
i better go for a temper controlling course.
met up with puni chan mon fart recently.
glad to see her happy in her new job,
though she took a MC!?
and spent her afternoon out with us lunching!!
puni, bvb and eat soon ok??
have fun!!!
roni's really stressed out with her exams,
and lots of stuffs,
which in turn,
FREAKED me out too.
lots of unhappy moments,
as well as happy moments,
lots of emotional pain,
as well as physical pain...
sigh, wish everything will be better soon..
here's to spastic big pen.
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Thursday, April 06, 2006
i'm flying off later on le!!! to thailand!!! for asian volleyball tour..
spent the last few days with family and roni...
spending quality time with them...
made roni smile and laugh...
grins...
as long as family and roni's happy, i'm happy too.
finally met grace up after she's back from cambodia...
became blacker..
thinner..
nice time spent out with ya!! -giggles-
talked lots about ball..
and little gossips she missed out when she's away...
i've been living the past week like kind of in fear..
kept thinking
'what if i die in thailand amidst all the chaos'
kept thinking about that...
*sobs*
been telling my family and my little bitches that i love them every single day..
play with them..
talked to them...
sobs...
if something really happen to me,
just wanna tell you guys that i really love you...
to seety and marv...
kept thinking what will happen too...
have not got enough time talk to you guys or just spend time with ya...
you guys been in a huge part of my life...
through ups and downs.
playing ball together..
sleeping together..
doing everything together!!!
if anything unlucky happens to me...
take lots of care yeah???
do embrace all the challenges in your path in life..
and remember me!!!!
and to rest of my little friendssssssss...
i have crossed your path in a way or another..
hope i have done something for you guys or what la...
well...
just hope to see all of you all happy...
and in whatever you do..
i'll be supporting you guys!
and to my dearest roni...
i can't bring myself to post this part down to ya..
will just slowly write it out in a letter...
will pass it to you later when i see ya..
now the end for the sad part.. haha..
on the bright side...
days spent with roni and loved ones these few days has been good!!!
though kept raining these few days...
didn't even have any training la... so irritating..
so unprepared le...
so just shopped...
burnt my pocket..
hope i've enough for thai thai...
my first trip to thailand to play vball..
super excited la..
i'm like so off...
cause play ball for so long..
first time go thailand. ahah!!
i binged on good food with family and roni these few days..
ate sakae sushi like 3 times a week!?!?
went k-box 3 times in a week too!? also died...
lots of stuffs la..
but am happy and everybody's happy!!!
except my poor little pocket..
hai.
got to go back to packing..
kinda miss singapore...
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Friday, March 31, 2006
Past few days has been really really nice.... grins..
or rather, maybe not..
MONDAY
nothing much today... just went for training..
and k-lunching with my boy!!! yummy.. we sang lots of songs la..
but both of us sounded bad.. haha!!!
sang till we cough, sleep, eat.
then went for coffee and window shop. grins...
thanks boy!! for the treat!!! yummyyyyy...
left him at 7 for training.. yawns..
but in the end court was infested with the-flies-that-are-attracted-to-bright-lights-after-rain.
so in the end, didn't train.
went to mac to talk about the thailand trip instead.
sigh..
then it happen that i'll end up playing with angel for this trip to thailand again.
utterly upset.
utterly disappointed.
*cries..
long story..
then even when gracescy come back le she won't be playing with me..
i'm still stuck with her..
guess at least for the next year or two..
wtf. my life in beach so ruin la.
went to meet roni at JP right after that to complain to her!!!
thanks dear.. poor ears of yours have suffered badly.
sat down and talk talk talk about vball and stuffs..
then went home!
TUESDAY.
training. training. siong training. home.
WEDNESDAY.
i had a fantastic date with RONI!!!!! *dance around*
our kind of second official date..
it's been like YEARS since i last step into town at like 10am in the morning or 11am??
we caught "HILLS HAVE EYES"
suppose to be horror movie..
i thought it was some ghostly horrow movie..
then in the end it's some gruesome bloody movie..
gross to the max la..
we watch.. and we both practically just prefer looking at one another instead of the show. HAHA.
then came a time when i couldn't take it anymore and suggested leaving the place.
haha!!
what makes it more scary is that there was only one more guy in the cinema with us!!
and he wasn't screaming like how we want to scream?
or rather. grossed out.
cries...
so we didn't manage to finish the movie.. but we're both wondering about the ending. HAAH
treated her to high tea at crystal jade.. yum yum
and got her a cd.. cause i made her mad the night before?? time to cheer her up.
forgiven right roni?? :P
anyway.. time was spent window shopping..
time passed super fast!!! then i've to like go meet teammies for shopping..
in the end try the bra tops for competition..
just too bad that our teammies are made up of people who are super well endowed (aka me)
and people who are not so well endowed (the rest of the teammies)
SO TROUBLESOME LA!
shit man..
all of them ok ok ok.. then i say, 'sorry, no support for my boobies'
and the model's taken out of our choice..
i think i should just go for some breasts reducing op.
i'll look more normal perhaps..
I WANT A NORMAL SET OF BREASTS!
anyway.. met roni after that in the train to send her back to sch...
then on my way home.. was so sleepy that i fell right asleep from the start till the end of the journey.
THURSDAY.
once i woke up.
darling boy called and said,
'girl, are you awake? where are you?'
got a shock, and i replied.
'ya ya.. just woke up.. im' at home. why?'
he: 'Come down central now and k-lunch with me'
wtf.?
haha..
but in the end i showered and went down..
what a morning breakfast for me..
had a little bit of fun.. then went back home when he go clinic..
yawns..
napped.
then went to seiyu bugis to buy the bra tops..
gotta claim it from VAS really soon man..
and the stupid seiyu..
call that time say got size..
go that time no size.
fuck la.. in the end i've to settle for something that i'm not satisfied with! BLEAHX.
met roni after that at city hall..
wanted to get the money-clipper and card holder from raffles city..
but their black's sold out..
and went to flash and splash to look at this stussy wallet that i saw the other day..
was about to get it when roni shove me a plastic bag!
she bought it for me le!!!
so nice!!!
kisses! thanks roni..
la la la...
luckily i didn't like ask for a new piece, about to pay already then receive the pressie..
yummy...
after that we went to Prints to get a notebook for our little writings..
our own private blog between us.. nice nice..
roni sent me home!!! or rather.. i tricked her into my train home. haha..
nice day spent together again!!! la la la
*happy happy
phew. finally ended more or less.
grins...
LOVE RONI? YEAH YEAH...
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Sunday, March 26, 2006
regrets.
i'm sorry.
i'm just feeling very complicated now till i don't even know how i feel.
how can you possibly know how i feel?
why is it over her again?
i give up.
think whatever you want.
i'm in no state to deny, defend, agree, or to feel im' in the wrong.
i feel as though i didn't do you any wrong.
bye.
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Saturday, March 25, 2006
whoohoo...
a week of training is finally over...
got to sprint for 8 more trainings!!!
then i'm off to thailand..
don't feel prepared at all..
am so so so vex...
talked to her today..
and apparently i can't play youth team for both indoor and beach anymore..
all thanks to mr chai that sit-down-create-problems-bastard.
sigh..
am i really suppose to choose between beach and indoor before i leave for thailand?
im' really so torn in between.
*cries
being able to play in SEA games for indoor vball has always been my childhood dream
till now even..
i fantasize about cheering with the whole team of 11 people when a point is scored.
i fantasize being motivated during training by coaches, teammates..
how often do you get a passion that burns inside you year after year after year..
and beach..
i want to develop further for beach..
i want to keep improving and improving and improving..
i said i'd stay with grace
i wanna face the ultimate challenge..
i wanna strive to be the best in my age group.
lots of reasons for me to choose this and not that.
and also lots of reasons for me to choose that and not this.
if that time i hadn't been itchy-hand and ventured into beach when i didn't manage to go up to nat. team for indoor,
all these wouldn't have happened..
but then again.. i may not be able to improve my indoor..
i may have gone full blast into dragon boating.
but that wasn't my passion at all..
darn.
girl, i guess you wouldn't understand what a dilemma i'm in right now..
i'm serious..
and i don't blame you..
cause you've never been caught in this situation.
and i guess you don't know how i feel regarding vball too..
heard youth selection is on the 8th april..
i'll be in Thailand for comp..
will mr wong submit my name?
will i be allowed to play just the ASEAN Women's Junior this yr till i make my decision again..
will i be allowed to play for the youth team even though i miss the selection..
if i choose indoor..
am i capable to improve myself to the level of SEA games.
i wanna be an asset to the team.
i seriously don't know where are my limits.. are they my max? or am i able to go further, much further..
seet.. where are you..
i really just need to talk to you and tell you everything that is happening now..
*crying alone... :(
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Wednesday, March 22, 2006
hacking to the connection again.
HEHE.
anyway..
had friendly with VJ today..
whoohoo!!!
my shirt's soaking soaking wet!!!!
but pretty fun la..
had quite a big of fun laughing during play
and that bonnie girl, i think.
she's super tall la!!!
just like a wall!!!!
first time i kena block so many times a day
even back court spike!!! MY GOSH!
she's really a wall la!!!
but the game was fun..
at least more fun than training i guess.
know at the end what the teacher in charge tell me??
he said
'bring your little fresh graduates to the gym first then come and play with us la'
'all soft soft, build more then more fun le ma'
irritating.
if my girls are all trained up, then you guys will be no kick??
think like that play nicer..
i love my girls like that..
so cute and nice..
although we don't have 178cm tallies..
we have shorties who can jump high and smack hard.
grins!!
we are one big family!!! HEH!
hur.
after match we went to shake hands with one another (tradition)
then the last girl when i was shaking hand with her
she shouted,
'ouxiang!'
got a shock, hope she's not saying that to me.
*runs
stupid debbie got to make fun of me.
met roni for dinner..
it was our anniversary.
2nd month only though. heh!
she got me this cute little cup plus those stars..
sweets...
on top of that!!!!
she surprised me!!!
she cooked this corn soup thingy that was super super duper yummy!!
i was POURING the soup into my mouth
instead of scooping it..
went to eat KFC after that..
my long long time craving, for god knows how many days....
after that took a walk and sent roni home..
she waited for the bus with me..
and i went home!!
yeah!!!
anyway.. though it's like a short short 1.5 hours..
it was the sweetest moment!!!
or rather.. every moment spent with roni's sweet..
happy 2nd mth roni.. lalala...
today is a fun day spent!!!!! LALALALALA~~~ HUR HUR...
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Sunday, March 19, 2006
oh yes!! finally i get to be here again!!!
my idiotic penniless brother. growls.
apparently he didn't 'set-aside' money to pay the internet bills
*according to him*
and in the end the connection went dead!
and i'm stranded at home without 'wireless'.
so handicapped la!!!
without internet..
no msn no blah blah blah
now that i'm here.. from home..
doesn't mean that he PAID THE BILL!
since i use the internet..
i have decided to be FAIR and pair $20 for the bill per month!
should the line be cut again! -full refund of whatever i have paid!-
i'm using my neighbour's wireless. hehe..
feeling like a thief right now..
budden, i'm really praying they don't like cut me off SUDDENLY cause i'm enjoying talking to my baby online.
today is spent kinda wasted again.
was planning to row with auntie anne this afternoon from 2-4
go out get mama's birthday cake
then go home for yummy dinner and spend the rest of the day with Mama Tan.
and some 'i-think-i-am-da-GREATEST' bitch got to come and say
training from morning 830-1030 change to 2-4 then change to 4-6
and LASTLY 5-7!
THEN!? that was the LAST LAST LAST DRAW FOR HoHo and ME!
THAT'S IT! WE'RE BOTH NOT GOInG TRAINING YOU BITCH!
in the end, -training cancelled-
day wasted.
next two weeks gonna be really intensive trainings for the beachies.
training everyday except wednesday and sunday
and two sessions on saturday.
HANG ON HoHo!!!
we'll get through this!!!
at least we'll improve and give our best shot in Thailand!!
yeah!!!!
we shall just play and improve our play.. need not care about her anymore!!
we shall bleed, cry, sweat it all out together!!!
enjoy our play!!!
and love,
do take a rest if you're really tired.
i'm really sleeping for you
farting for you
burping for you
digging my nose for you
rotting for you
eating for you
exercising for you
loving myself for you
it's all too much!!!
TOO MUCH IN EXCESS!!!!
rest by loving me yea?
*kiss
anyway..
I LOVE WEIRONG!!!
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Friday, March 17, 2006
today's a filled day!!! grins
first, spent lunch at JP@Citibank with the ever cutest of CST
(a.k.a. Man, Jing, nie, jin, xin and lastly me!)
it's my first time eating with the whole group of them la!!
to celebrate dearest winnie's belated b'day
got 19 orange-eee stuffs for her
(inc. condom, panty liner, gel, vit. c, etc.)
think it was loads of fun..
got a whole cake from Han's too..
it was a last minute plan up... grins
think the people at HAN's are really IDIOTIC.
we asked for 19 candles cause nie nie is 19 yo this yr.
and guess what.
they gave us ONE big candle...
and 19 of the CANDLE HOLDERS.
like what the fuck am i going to do with those.
light it up!?
idiotism.
went clementi for training after that..
yawns..
courtesy of angelic angel..
here she goes,
at 6pm!
"xiangting, i'm having a discussion with VAS people right now, i can't make it down in time for training later on, could you kindly please take a cab to guoliang's workplace and collect the balls from him and take a cab down to clementi?"
me: "yes, of course i can. alright, we'll see you later then. bye!" -sarcasm!-
she: " Thanks a lot dear, i'll see you later." -SHUDDERS-
i had my goosebumps.
at the training...
and 2 hours later...
end of training...
finish washing up...
STILL NO SIGN OF HER! WTF.
and all her big talk about coming down and she'll take the balls back.
darn.
in the end the poor boys got to carry the balls down to guoliang's place..
poor us all...
that's it! i'm so going to claim all my cab fares from VAS direct!!!
CLAIM CLAIM CLAIM!
it's getting on my nerves.
went to meet my pretty upsetted girl...
apparently someone adoringly named -MIKEY- upsetted my baby!
you a.k.a. M-I-K-E-Y, better watch out!! growls
stop making my baby cry...
GET OUT OF HER LIFE!!!
go flirt all you want and don't meddle with her..
or don't flirt, and continue your FRIENDSHIP with her.
and i mean F-R-I-E-N-D-S-H-I-P...
and my poor boy.. didn't manage to get into SP..
guess you better appeal through vball.
i bet your chances will be super much higher la!!
or come to TP..
then you can take some 'special talents scheme'
then it's so near your *ahem*
and me!!! lol
i'm so dead tired now... took a bus from boon lay back to toa payoh..
i'm going butt-less soon...
*crawl to bed*
time to end off..
i love you baby.. cheer up alright...
i will be more understanding should this kinda thing crop up again..
i'm sorry for making you more miserable.
*kiss
and don't cry cause of him again yeah??
don't think it's worth it la..
that toot toot..
14 more days to seet's return! *yeah!
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Tuesday, March 14, 2006
having my holidays right now... am so lost all of a sudden... i wake up everyday not knowing what to do.. haha!!
weekends are spent with my pretty roni...
wasted lots and loads of time snuggling in bed
but i'm loving it so..
i'm in sucha dilemma.
i can't wait for semester to start.
im afraid to embrace the upcoming semester.
fuck.
will i survive, will i not?
i'm being thrown in the sea
left to swim alone,
all for what??
to survive..
*cries*
baby's so screwed up with her school work right now..
so hectic!! madness!!
am so proud of presentation la! pro man..
hey princess, it's ok ya know??
know your test was a flop..
well, just got to work around it and try to conquer the rest of the components!?
i believe you can do it..
if you think you can, you can
if you think you can't, you can't.
so upset... i can't work at coffeebean anymore...
all thanks to those cock-a-na-den statements from CPF
i'm so going to miss making coffee and dealing with those 'oh-i-am-god' kinda customers.
but its' ok.. think i'll just go down and help when i am free...
it shall demote and be my PASTIME!
had a little tiff with the princess today...
sigh...
can i just tell that ASL that she's mine she's mine she's mine
i don't care whether you still love her or what
SHE'S MINE MEANS SHE'S MINE
stop insulting me
stop treating me as though i'm not there.
u fucked up bastard.
*chill*
don't even know what am i feeling now.
anger? disappointment? sadness?
i don't know la. i just want you in my life.
*complicated emotions.
shall indulge myself in my ever reliant bestest bestest buddy (a.k.a. VOLLEYBALL)
hey bola voli, i love ya the most.
you've been with me the past 12 years of my life..
and will still be for the rest of my life.
*cries*
*SPIKES!*
miss my ah kor...
you're a big part of my life too!!
am feeling down and it feels weird when you're not here
it's alright..
~looking forward for ya return~
boy's attached too!!! no more lorong supper with me! cries.
it's ok... his partner lives near my sch!! means there's tamp's supper together!!!
glad that everything's over and we didn't let that matter break out brother-ship.
*kiss.
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Sunday, March 12, 2006
sigh.. first an foremost.. i shall report sick big me..
i represents 3 generations during this period of sickness
1. I cough like an old woman
2. I move around with a back ache like a pregnant woman.
3. And I whine and whine to my macaroni like a 3-year-old
today is a nice day spent resting..
went to meet anne to collect paddles for myself and gerard..
and was given a really pleasant surprise by her..
she actually bought me a black grey owl paddle instead of the normal one
and i think it cost 2-3 times more?
silly.. shouldn't have spent a bomb like that..
i will make sure the money is well spent ok!?!?
THANKS A MILLION BABE!!
at my roni's place now... sigh.. don't understand why some people just can't
accept that his partner has found someone better be it a GUY or a GIRL even after 5 yrs of relationship.. bloody piece of shit.
just the sight of your name really irks me skin deep.
spending the night here tonight...
and she's sucha pretty babe..
in everything she does!!!
shall spare everyone from the details. heh! :)
missed a few trainings, cause of this wave of coughs that struck me for 3 days.
sulks...
shall go from next week onwards!! i don't care if i'm sick anymore!!
miss the sand, sun and the beach ball..
miss the hard court, my vball shoes, the 2.24m and 2.43 net heights,
miss the attacking line, miss the cheering. EVERYTHING LA! haiyox.
anyway, i can't think of anything all of a sudden.
my mind is completely filled with images of my macaroni.
"macaroni, oh my macaroni..."
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Thursday, March 09, 2006
yeah!!! finally finally finally!!! tomorrow's my last day of attachment!!!! *dance around*
i'm going to leave my big buffalo prints deep onto the history of RGS...
bad prints are even more memorable than good prints.
i shall do just that!
but they're still exploiting me and jing's service la!
got to go back for learning journey week, update notice board, redo nutritional analysis.
knn.
to hell with the teachers.
anyway, was researching online regarding pasta the other day..
and i got to find out the meaning of 'macaroni'..
it means 'dearest darlings'..
so cute.. i called my girl 'macaroni' and it caught her off guard!
so cute!! hehe..
shall call her macaroni from now on..
but don't know the information reliable anot..
hope it's really true!!!
on mc today.. down with really bad flu and cough..
and it's my major assessment today for my teaching.
what a screw up..
it's swimming carnival tomorrow!!! not alot of classes too..
actually it's quite nice being sick right now...
cause my baby came down to accompany me for dinner since i was really sick..
felt better instantly when i see her..
whoohoo!!
but i felt worse again after she left..
thanks dear.. for the company! *big beams*
sigh.. i feel so bad for jing..
hey dearest swine, i really want to send ya my heart felt thanks for these 10 weeks during attachment!!
you've been the greatest partner i have at work, and you're just the epitome of an angel...
from the little things you have done for my birthday, to the pek cek-ness from me that you got to take,
you're a wonder woman..
Thank you, thank you thank you so so so much... i seriously owe you a really good treat
HUGS! you are so going to make a really really good teacher!! cheers! see u in sch!!
just had my medi.. feeling so weak now.. drowsy drowsy... lol..
sigh... miss my ah kor so much... no message from her and stuffs.. wonder how is she doing...
i miss playing beach with her!!! come back soon seet.. you're being missed badly..
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Monday, March 06, 2006
4 more days to the end of my attachment!! yeah!!! but i'm so going to miss the darling girls over there.. such sweetie pies they are
but i really hate the teachers... or rather, teachers of MY department.. some bitches fighting for the queen of the bitches throne. exploiting every hints of breath and energy i had, exhausting me till i'm reduced to skin and bones. get lost bitches, i'll be thrown back to freedom land after the 10 MARCH!! you guys will be left alone to swim in the big vast ocean.. good luck..
i miss my baby loads.. had been a cold day between the both of us... like so cold and all.. felt so distant away from her.. but it's really ok ok ok... i hope we can get back on track again.. i'll try to compromise alright?? cheer up girl.. i love ya..
time to go for a jog now and work out... going thailand soon, anyone want something from that place of chaos?? hope i'll come back alive.. grins.
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